Damaged.

Damaged, a word that I've used to describe myself on occasion. It's a terrible feeling, when you feel tossed aside, or discarded like the mess people throw out after a major holiday. Loneliness takes over, and the darkness clouds your view of any light at the end of the tunnel. Making you believe that there never will be anything brighter than the shades of gray and black that you're allowing to consume you. At this point you have two choices, give in to the darkness and proceed to hurt, or push through the darkness. Eventually there will be light, it may not be right at the beginning, and it may not come quickly but its there. I've recently had to make the choice, either mope around and be sad or do something about the way i feel. I'm not going to lie, I'm still not sleeping well but I've never exactly been on a proper sleep schedule. But it will get better. I have to believe that. There are so many more things i could be doing with my time besides being sad or upset about something that hasn't ruined my life. So 2011 is going to be a year of rebuilding, growing, maturing, and I'm not going to let anything get me down......Neither should you.